我有很多朋友
今天，想聊一聊一个她
已忘了初识的情景，记性不好是借口，我很少用心去做件事，记忆无法储存入长期记忆里是理所当然的
那个时候的我们是同班同学，很年轻很幼嫩很有活力，特别是她，清清纯纯的
我称自己为大野狼，而她则是小绵羊
后来分班了，见面的次数虽减少了点，仍然会趁下课休息时段去八，偶尔上厕所时会故意绕到她课室外走廊上，挑一挑眉毛使眼色打招呼
不知什么时候开始的，她成了 奇怪且孤僻的我 的好朋友
PMR后，算我还够争气考得不差，和成绩好的她再次同班
同班的日子，我们并没有坐在一起
因为，我人比较贪心也较孤僻，要一个人做两个位子
尽管如此，偶尔她也会借机跑到我身边来八
跟她一起的感觉是很舒服，不许太多言语就能明白，不明白也能谅解，不明白无法理解也能给予鼓励
她 阳光般灿烂的笑容是我仍无法抗拒的温柔
她 善良纯洁天使般的爱心总让我想拥抱疼惜
我们的性格，很一样 却不一样
她说，自己是蟹寄生，周旋身边的人吸取能量生存着
其实，每一个人何尝不是这样
都一样从他人身上发现自己、得到力量、继续生存
中学毕业后，各奔东西
她总是那个不曾放弃主动联络的一位
相对下，我太无情了
每每周末休息都会越过长堤归来 坚持每次能小聚的机会
就我们四人 *微笑*
我从不知道，我的一封回复或一句问候，能让她欣喜若狂
从不知道，我开心她也会很开心
她对我的耐心等待宽容迁就体谅 我惭愧
没想过，身边会有一位如此爱惜我的朋友
她偶尔强烈的执著 激动气愤 皆是她的坚强
我一直都认为 她能有更好的前程
她是颗未被发掘的宝石
她有属于她的天空 而不是一直等待的那一位
我对她 一直以来 都感到很愧疚
很多时候，我无法和她分担她的忧郁心伤
关系复杂 无形中形成隔阂及很深的空隙
我 不适合过问 她 不知如何开口
特自私的我，不曾去探听谁谁谁怎样如何发生什么事儿
自然而然，我是那个什么都不知道或最后才知道的人
仔细想想 过于自我中心主义的我 极少停下脚步 看看身边的人 也错失了很多
其实，我并没有资格 也不值得的
我
只是 什么都不是
望 她开心就好，幸福就好，欢笑就好
还有。。谢谢你
24 May, 2007
17 May, 2007
漆黑
邪恶 气息渐逼近
弥漫着时空 瞬间压迫
唇干舌燥 心跳加速
神经处警戒状态 静候
恶魔 诡异的奸笑
荡漾耳边 不散去
嘲笑着 无知 懦弱 失败 努力 勇敢 梦想
四处张望 却不见他踪影
畏惧 由心伸展开
指尖微微颤抖 极冰
冷淡薄上衣 在漆黑中 更显孤立
无影子走廊 仿佛延伸至黑洞
残愧 侵蚀不健全的灵魂
畸形幸福 如何还原
咬破下唇 舔尝血腥滋味
紧握的拳头仍放不开
逃避 扣留试图前进的足额
跪地祈求 赦免及放逐
耻笑声 此起彼落
黑夜更显漆黑 已蔓延开
弥漫着时空 瞬间压迫
唇干舌燥 心跳加速
神经处警戒状态 静候
恶魔 诡异的奸笑
荡漾耳边 不散去
嘲笑着 无知 懦弱 失败 努力 勇敢 梦想
四处张望 却不见他踪影
畏惧 由心伸展开
指尖微微颤抖 极冰
冷淡薄上衣 在漆黑中 更显孤立
无影子走廊 仿佛延伸至黑洞
残愧 侵蚀不健全的灵魂
畸形幸福 如何还原
咬破下唇 舔尝血腥滋味
紧握的拳头仍放不开
逃避 扣留试图前进的足额
跪地祈求 赦免及放逐
耻笑声 此起彼落
黑夜更显漆黑 已蔓延开
14 May, 2007
一样的星期六
上周末跑回家了一趟，星期六凌晨抵达的，原因是：刚巧老哥开车回又是母亲节。
上午没什么事儿做，决定去Linda家找她八。漫无目的的乱八。她给我看她一位友人friendster里的照片，是由很多小小张的自拍大头贴组成的背景和张她的侧面照（大）重叠的一张图。Linda说她也想做一张，因为很特别很漂亮，我就说其实应该不会太难，反正有时间就试试看做得成吗。。
Linda边操控电脑边说那天她用手机总共照了300++照片。。-.-"
打开了她的Picture Folder 一览，还真的事很多很多很多很多自拍照。。
由于太多了，我只好随便挑选了20+张，tranfer进我的laptop，开始‘动工’。
试了几个programmes，不大会操控，最后决定用Picasa试一下。咦。。？可以wor~
先将那20+张照片拼在一起，然后复制几遍又再拼合，调色调光线等等。接着从主照着手，同样的调这个调那个.....
就这样，完成了！！
Linda看了粉高兴粉兴奋，我也觉得挺满意的。对我这样一个没学过什么电脑也没上过programme课程人来说，能做出这样的图，算不错（哈哈，沾沾自喜 :P）~
‘工程’完成，肚子就饿了。。就开车到附近买了好久没尝的爱玉冰&虾饼，还有很好吃的炸香蕉回到Linda家享用。
这样的星期六，像极了以往的星期六，那个令人怀念的星期六，那个中学时期的星期六。
上午没什么事儿做，决定去Linda家找她八。漫无目的的乱八。她给我看她一位友人friendster里的照片，是由很多小小张的自拍大头贴组成的背景和张她的侧面照（大）重叠的一张图。Linda说她也想做一张，因为很特别很漂亮，我就说其实应该不会太难，反正有时间就试试看做得成吗。。
Linda边操控电脑边说那天她用手机总共照了300++照片。。-.-"
打开了她的Picture Folder 一览，还真的事很多很多很多很多自拍照。。
由于太多了，我只好随便挑选了20+张，tranfer进我的laptop，开始‘动工’。
试了几个programmes，不大会操控，最后决定用Picasa试一下。咦。。？可以wor~
先将那20+张照片拼在一起，然后复制几遍又再拼合，调色调光线等等。接着从主照着手，同样的调这个调那个.....
就这样，完成了！！
Linda看了粉高兴粉兴奋，我也觉得挺满意的。对我这样一个没学过什么电脑也没上过programme课程人来说，能做出这样的图，算不错（哈哈，沾沾自喜 :P）~
‘工程’完成，肚子就饿了。。就开车到附近买了好久没尝的爱玉冰&虾饼，还有很好吃的炸香蕉回到Linda家享用。
这样的星期六，像极了以往的星期六，那个令人怀念的星期六，那个中学时期的星期六。
11 May, 2007
美丽人生之 完美主义
同样是从美丽行脚那里转贴来的，与大家分享
大大的美中, 有小小的缺陷.
生活本來就是如此, 我卻死愛鑽牛角尖.
圖: 行瑞 文: 麗英
摘自 美丽行脚
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
完美中的不完美，带遗憾美
追求完美，失去了美的惊叹，换来的是疲惫
因为不完美，所以造就了特别的美
懂得珍惜眼前的美，最美。
大大的美中, 有小小的缺陷.
生活本來就是如此, 我卻死愛鑽牛角尖.
圖: 行瑞 文: 麗英
摘自 美丽行脚
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
完美中的不完美，带遗憾美
追求完美，失去了美的惊叹，换来的是疲惫
因为不完美，所以造就了特别的美
懂得珍惜眼前的美，最美。
~by 流浪女
最近
开学已一星期了，基本上没发生什么特别的事儿。和往常一样，出门去上课，和朋友聊聊天,找找事情八。
这星期在考虑到底free elective paper要拿什么科目，因为选项不多。 对！原来，FREE elective paper 不是 FREE 的！(wtf :X ), 我还真心开心高兴太好了能免付两科subjects的学费，原来FREE这里的意思是=自由， 也就是自由选择的科目。。欺骗了我的感情 ><
星期一，约了Grace到MidValley。 超久没看到她了！*数一数* 1..2..3..4..5..6..嗯，约6年没见面了！她还是老样子，样子没什么变，言谈举止间显露成熟的味道。一同到Sushi King 吃午餐聊天，探听UTAR心理学系的课程如何等。原来他们的心理学系较注重于counseling,而且很多project都是group project，比较少individual report & Lab Report，和我们的制度不一样。
用完餐后，就四处逛逛，打算买服饰出席朋友的婚礼，却没找着心仪的。很巧（其实也没有很巧）遇到SY他们，然后一起去看了Spider Man3。 嗯，说说观后感。还不错咯，不会很难看也不会很好看，非烂片，不过也没有特别精彩，还是之前看的The Shooter比较好看。
星期三和一班朋友一起到cheras konot 的 pasar malam去逛。这是第二次去了，听说是全马最长的pasar malam (真的很长长长长~~)。我和朋友边走边吃边八看有卖什么，发现还真不少摊子在卖鱼丸，各式各样口味的鱼丸，不过我对鱼丸没什么兴趣，倒是对炸鸡扒情有独钟。走走看看，咦！看见熟悉的脸孔！猜我遇到谁？！我竟然遇到了很久不见的KokHau & Elvin（猪仔），原来他们两人和Henry Tan（可惜没遇到他）都在UCSI念书呢！就这样，当晚吃了不少，隔天早上起来脸上‘浮’出了几粒痘痘在抗议！
嗯。。怎么感觉上像是在写周记 *扁嘴*
好啦，就写到这！
这星期在考虑到底free elective paper要拿什么科目，因为选项不多。 对！原来，FREE elective paper 不是 FREE 的！(wtf :X ), 我还真心开心高兴太好了能免付两科subjects的学费，原来FREE这里的意思是=自由， 也就是自由选择的科目。。欺骗了我的感情 ><
星期一，约了Grace到MidValley。 超久没看到她了！*数一数* 1..2..3..4..5..6..嗯，约6年没见面了！她还是老样子，样子没什么变，言谈举止间显露成熟的味道。一同到Sushi King 吃午餐聊天，探听UTAR心理学系的课程如何等。原来他们的心理学系较注重于counseling,而且很多project都是group project，比较少individual report & Lab Report，和我们的制度不一样。
用完餐后，就四处逛逛，打算买服饰出席朋友的婚礼，却没找着心仪的。很巧（其实也没有很巧）遇到SY他们，然后一起去看了Spider Man3。 嗯，说说观后感。还不错咯，不会很难看也不会很好看，非烂片，不过也没有特别精彩，还是之前看的The Shooter比较好看。
星期三和一班朋友一起到cheras konot 的 pasar malam去逛。这是第二次去了，听说是全马最长的pasar malam (真的很长长长长~~)。我和朋友边走边吃边八看有卖什么，发现还真不少摊子在卖鱼丸，各式各样口味的鱼丸，不过我对鱼丸没什么兴趣，倒是对炸鸡扒情有独钟。走走看看，咦！看见熟悉的脸孔！猜我遇到谁？！我竟然遇到了很久不见的KokHau & Elvin（猪仔），原来他们两人和Henry Tan（可惜没遇到他）都在UCSI念书呢！就这样，当晚吃了不少，隔天早上起来脸上‘浮’出了几粒痘痘在抗议！
嗯。。怎么感觉上像是在写周记 *扁嘴*
好啦，就写到这！
05 May, 2007
Orientation
I ended my semester break holiday few days earlier, rushed back to KL to get involved in the 2 days Orientation sessions, as a mentor/facilitator for the new students.
3rd May
Reached the college main block at around 10am. Well, it's quite nice to be back to HELP, although nothing changed. The orientation started with some speeches don't know by who (I didn't attend that session, was chit-chatting with other mentors outside ;P) until 11.15am at the Theater at mainblock. Then, these new 'fleshes' were grouped into 10 in a group, and yea, our job started, which was being a Tour Guide, showing them where are the important places in the college, from mainblock to Wisma HELP, KPD A & E. Of course, we brought them to some places where students used to hangout at or for makan. After about 1 and a half hour's touring, we ended our duty by having lunch with them.
hm..i actually found that, this intake got more guys!!(It's a gd news!) although the number of girls is still higher than the boys. I don't know why there are more females than males choose to study psychology (in HELP, don't know other coll/uni's condition), is Psychology a feminine subjects ? (hm.....)
4th May
The second day of orientation. Reached KPD at nearly 9am. Met up with CS and other mentors and helpers, had some discussions and suggestions for the programme of the day. 'Meet the Seniors' session started at 10am, with brief introduction of ARCCADE by Eric (lol), and new students were divided into groups according to the name of some famous psychologist they being randomly assigned to.
Then, we played some games together..nah, i bet you're not interested in types of games we played, it was kind of ..well..u know..what to do..(lol). But overall, wasn't so bad, at least nobody was being tortured (I hope so ><) and we/they really made some friends!
My mentees are mostly from HMC, they are energetic & creative! Some of them are over 30s, they are mature and calm. I guess, they will definately hav lots of fun and experiences while interacting among themselves =) .
After the orientation, I went for movie with CS, 'Wild Hogs' . Hm...the story was quite alright, it's all bout four midle-age men, gd friends, from different backgrounds (stories), formed a riding team called ' Wild Hogs' , Malay transcript is Babi Liar, (lol). And, some funny stuffs and lessons they had along their journey. It was quite a funny movie, killed part of my boredooms away. I get the movie ticket with student price for RM6 in MidVally (^^Y).
And then..still not the end, hehe. I had dinner/yumcha with friends from the forum in little restorant in Serdang. I ordered Fish & Chips, which I don't order usually, the reason for me to do so was because it's really cheap, only RM5.50, and the portion was quite BIG, 2 pieces of fishes + salad + fries + source. However, I found it was very greasy and the fish wasn't so tasty, probably the cooking oild has been used over and over again don't know how many billion times! (yuck!). Well, the drinks was quite cheap! It's only RM1.50 ~ RM2.50 per big glass =D
Reached home around 11pm. It was a beautiful (today's evening scenes were awesome) and tiring day. =)
3rd May
Reached the college main block at around 10am. Well, it's quite nice to be back to HELP, although nothing changed. The orientation started with some speeches don't know by who (I didn't attend that session, was chit-chatting with other mentors outside ;P) until 11.15am at the Theater at mainblock. Then, these new 'fleshes' were grouped into 10 in a group, and yea, our job started, which was being a Tour Guide, showing them where are the important places in the college, from mainblock to Wisma HELP, KPD A & E. Of course, we brought them to some places where students used to hangout at or for makan. After about 1 and a half hour's touring, we ended our duty by having lunch with them.
hm..i actually found that, this intake got more guys!!(It's a gd news!) although the number of girls is still higher than the boys. I don't know why there are more females than males choose to study psychology (in HELP, don't know other coll/uni's condition), is Psychology a feminine subjects ? (hm.....)
4th May
The second day of orientation. Reached KPD at nearly 9am. Met up with CS and other mentors and helpers, had some discussions and suggestions for the programme of the day. 'Meet the Seniors' session started at 10am, with brief introduction of ARCCADE by Eric (lol), and new students were divided into groups according to the name of some famous psychologist they being randomly assigned to.
Then, we played some games together..nah, i bet you're not interested in types of games we played, it was kind of ..well..u know..what to do..(lol). But overall, wasn't so bad, at least nobody was being tortured (I hope so ><) and we/they really made some friends!
My mentees are mostly from HMC, they are energetic & creative! Some of them are over 30s, they are mature and calm. I guess, they will definately hav lots of fun and experiences while interacting among themselves =) .
After the orientation, I went for movie with CS, 'Wild Hogs' . Hm...the story was quite alright, it's all bout four midle-age men, gd friends, from different backgrounds (stories), formed a riding team called ' Wild Hogs' , Malay transcript is Babi Liar, (lol). And, some funny stuffs and lessons they had along their journey. It was quite a funny movie, killed part of my boredooms away. I get the movie ticket with student price for RM6 in MidVally (^^Y).
And then..still not the end, hehe. I had dinner/yumcha with friends from the forum in little restorant in Serdang. I ordered Fish & Chips, which I don't order usually, the reason for me to do so was because it's really cheap, only RM5.50, and the portion was quite BIG, 2 pieces of fishes + salad + fries + source. However, I found it was very greasy and the fish wasn't so tasty, probably the cooking oild has been used over and over again don't know how many billion times! (yuck!). Well, the drinks was quite cheap! It's only RM1.50 ~ RM2.50 per big glass =D
Reached home around 11pm. It was a beautiful (today's evening scenes were awesome) and tiring day. =)
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